On old xanga posts

i was going through some old xanga posts because i'm looking for this particular post about something a friend told me that i used to remember by heart. but while i was going through posts after posts all memories came flooding in.

there's this one post that i echoed from "jhiesms" xanga site and it says:

"hindi lunkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kungdi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyung tao sa mundo wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka".

(loneliness or being scared is not the difficult part of being alone, it's accepting the fact that out of the billions and billions of people on this planet no one have attempted to fight to be with you)

that was four years ago. i was a lonely and very confused soul back then. there was one comment i got from that post telling me that it might be me who didnt try to fight for it. and i replied with "i did, but i don't want to force myself on anyone who doesn't want to fight for me anymore". sounded really sad but i'm glad that happened.

you get to know the real truth in ugly situtations and if it wasn't for that discovery i might not have been able to move on. if it wasn't for that i might have not met this someone who actually fought his way to be with me.

sometimes you have to experience
sadness to appreciate happiness...